Or, you know, you could just stop saying sorry.
"i have a problem i can’t control"
"stop having that problem omg"
We can’t control the problem, but we can control our actions.
Saying “I’m sorry” is an action. While simply stopping doesn’t solve the problem, choosing to want to stop saying “I’m sorry”, when you have nothing to be sorry for, is the start on a long road to recovery. It’s a very simple form of choosing to want to live a happier life.
I can understand that, but it’s not always that easy. Sometimes it’s more of a compulsion. I often apologize before I ever realize I’ve done it. It’s a reaction sometimes, not necessarily a conscious choice to say “I’m sorry.”
It’s never easy. From personal experience, its always the littlest things that are the hardest when it comes to mental disorders. Like getting out of bed is to the depressed, or saying “I’m beautiful” is to the anorexic and/or bulimic, or not apologizing is to the people with anxiety. These are the first tiny obstacles we may not even realize we do because it’s become so second nature. It’s a tiny battle to acknowledge that this is something we do because of our disorder. It’s a small victory to decide we no longer want to be this way and work toward getting better.
People don’t go about it the right ways, like saying “Stop saying ‘I’m sorry’ all the time! It’s annoying!” but when it’s coming from those who love you, it’s their way of saying, “You don’t have to be sorry. You’re okay. You’ve done nothing wrong. You’re just fine. It’s okay.” but they don’t know how to say it in a way that we’ll understand, so they get frustrated, and the frustration seems like it’s directed at us. Really, they are just angry because they can’t fix us. They know we have to choose to get better.
Choosing to seek help to learn how to not let your disorder influence your actions, and live a healthier life, can look like something as small as getting out of bed for a few hours, thinking that we’re “not ugly”, or being conscious of how often we say “I’m sorry” and saying it less or not at all.
Life with anxiety can look and feel like the images above. When we decide we want our images of life to look different, that’s when we stop apologizing for wanting a better, happier, life. I’ve seen people do amazing things, and overcome incredible obstacles, by simply choosing to change the way they do things, say things, and see things in the tiniest of ways.
Like I said, it’s a tiny battle with a small victory to be won, but its one that must be won on the path to defeating the disorder.
Nobody has to agree with me. You don’t have to defend yourself from me. I’m not here to say the way you’re doing anything wrong or that it’s your fault, because it’s not. But if you are like me, and you lay in bed, sit in class, or go to work wishing your life was better, or that you could be happier, know that you can be and that it starts with tiny battles.
This song makes me so happy whenver I hear it I love this song so much
Yea I can rap
Electrode, Diglett, Nidoran, Mankey
Venusaur, Rattata, Fearow, Pidgey
Seaking, Jolteon, Dragonite, Gastly
Ponyta, Vaporeon, Poliwrath, Butterfree
battle cry // ludo
but they’re all the same
scared of judgement day
and they’re sure you’ll turn around and go back home
The guys hooked me up with a good looking pineapple for prom. I “sedjuiced” him later
I regret nothing
And that’s how I ended my senior yearLesson: Never be ashamed to go alone